If you could see me, and my days, the title of this post “trying to stay positive” would seem ludicrous. My life is good, and rich, and happy.
The one lone lilac image I captured this year …
It’s just … that I’ve been too busy. Too on the go. I feel overwhelmed and discombobulated.
I look at emails in my inbox and my eyes glaze over. I see the mountainous pile of laundry and my heart pounds (can I not just throw it all out?) I look at my garden and think “I’ll never get a handle on this.” I think about capturing a photo for Instagram, or writing a blog post, and I freeze. My friends have been wanting me to go for a walk for weeks (and I’ve been declining.)
This morning I woke up (with the robins) before 5:00, and started thinking about the days I could hardly wait to get to the computer, or the camera, and I started wondering … what is going on here? It has me a bit concerned. But then I poured a coffee and went and sat on the deck for a bit. I listened to the birds, checked the rain gauge (more rain!) and marvelled over the incredible green wall of trees that surrounds our yard.
I began thinking about this coming summer, and how I want to spend it. It’s right on the doorstep and I’m not ready.
More and more my heart is telling me that I just want to “be”, but what that looks like, I’m not sure. The one thing I do know is that I can do whatever I want. I just need to get some laundry done, and stay positive.
Sometimes we just need to take a break from everything and fill ourselves back up ~ we will all be here when you get back xo
Thank you Lori … I’m trying to power through :)
Barb
xo
Barb, you are singing my song.
In some ways, it seems to be
easier to juggle multiple tasks
(and with gusto!) during the
winter months. Once spring
and summer put out their
siren calls, it makes me want
to just “BE” more…..sit outside
and watch fluffy clouds float
by….walk my dog and admire
all the flowers….listen to the
birds, etc. LOOK up at the life
around me, not look down at
the life on a screen, as lovely
as it may be presented.
Life is too short to do anything
that doesn’t bring joy (well,
there are some things we MUST
do…like laundry, etc). But when
it comes to free time, we should
truly feel FREE to pursue that
which makes our heart sing. So,
if that is not being on the computer
or behind the lens, so be it. It’s
your one and only life….
xo Suzanne
LOVE your words as usual Suzanne … “it’s your one and only life” thank you!
It’s good to read this because we have all been there. I think we all need to step back and “breathe” every once in awhile and wait for the motivation to come again!
Thank you Jean … yes … I think I forget to breathe …
This is exactly how I’m feeling, which is why I’m reading your blog. I decided to just sip my cup of tea and visit blogs like I used to. I’m so tired of being on the go 24/7.
You too Pam!? I hope you find a balance and enjoy your summer… we all need to s l o w down …
Hi Barb, Your not alone. . I can tell you that. I thought I would be moved by now and not until the end of June. I have boxes all over and what seems a mess yet I know where everything is. . and things just keep on piling up . Wish I could box somethings up for awhile and leave them there until Im ready to deal with them but it wont happen.
Have a lovely weekend. Thinking about you.
Oh Lisa, moving is one of the hardest things … and to be left in limbo … well lets just say that would paralyze me. Sending {{hugs}}
Barb, I just came across this post of yours and can truly identify. Last year I quit my busy 9-5 job to focus on my own business and design and writing, and now I see busier than ever and often find myself not practicing what I preach about mindfulness and simplicity. It’s so easy to be caught up in the excitement of doing stuff you love that we can take on too much at once and then it gets overwhelming, right? I try to remind myself to take a full day break from all of it on the weekends, and also to practice a morning routine so I can start the day off positively. It (usually) helps! Chin up and take some time to smell the Spring flowers! :)
It could be me writing this a few times a year Barb. It is a bit alarming and unnerving. I think our heartstrings need time to regroup and I’ve learned to go with it and the creative side will return refreshed and renewed. Hang in there.
Hi Barb I am new to your blog and am loving both your insight into life and your images.
I am actually relieved to hear that this happens to other people too. At the moment I feel so stuck. Not knowing what I need to do first. Because of this when I pick up my camera there is absolutely no spark whatsoever. I feel like I am going nowhere just treading water. I look forward to reading how you get through this :)